Ever since I heard my Grandma's diagnosis with cancer I have had a problem with food. As many of you know, last year I did a detox and finally shed the baby weight. I went down from 72.8kg to 64.6kg and I stayed that weight for the summer, possibly putting on a couple of pounds once I started back at university.
However, since the beginning of December, I have put on a ridiculous amount of weight, and now weigh 72.8kgs, nearly 10kgs more than December, that's 20lbs, or a stone and a half. I am quite shocked when I look at that, but I just can't seem to stop eating. I know it's wrong, but I think I am emotional eating. Which is something I have never done before, and I don't know how to stop it. I am ashamed to admit that sometimes I can eat four kitkat chunkys on the hour long journey to university. It makes me feel sick, but I never am. Currently I weigh more than I did when I was 9 months pregnant with my son. That's not right.
I don't know what to do. I guess it's something to do with grief, or finding out about Grandma, but it can't carry on like this. Luckily I am still (just) in my usual clothes, but they are tight and things need to change. I can't see a way out, but when I was approached by Thinking Slimmer to review their service, I jumped at the chance.
I was asked to think of one word which I would use to describe my body. At the moment, that word is sad. I am sad that I can't seem to control my eating and I am sad about my Grandma. It's the kind of sadness that you feel in your very core, which is why it feels so hard to shake off.
I can only hope that this helps with my emotional eating, because I think it's getting out of hand. At least I know I have a problem, but it doesn't make it any easier in finding a solution. I think that Thinking Slimmer will make a difference, because it is fundamentally challenging my brain to think differently about food. To be honest, at the moment I need all the help I can get.
This post has, for some reason, been ridiculously hard to write. I don't like admitting that I have a problem. I have been listening to the slimpod for nearly eight weeks now, and will update you on my progress in due course.
I can only hope that this helps with my emotional eating, because I think it's getting out of hand. At least I know I have a problem, but it doesn't make it any easier in finding a solution. I think that Thinking Slimmer will make a difference, because it is fundamentally challenging my brain to think differently about food. To be honest, at the moment I need all the help I can get.
This post has, for some reason, been ridiculously hard to write. I don't like admitting that I have a problem. I have been listening to the slimpod for nearly eight weeks now, and will update you on my progress in due course.
